since then…

I have managed to get a C+ grade when I expected better,
I have managed to get angry silence when I expected something sweeter,
I have managed to get turbulence when I expected it to be smoother,
I have managed to get family when myself and family weren’t together,
I have managed to speak with the moon…which explains why I returned later,
I have managed to piss people off when I had hoped for a happy ever after.

I have managed a lot of things in my life. So tell me,why can’t I manage to be happier?healthier?richer?wiser???

Because I realise since then…I have been so scared,dear father.
So scared to lose everything,that all I do is falter.

Oh,bummer.